Nina Marie Corona, M.A., C.R.S.

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Enduring the Chore of Change

After almost thirteen years of living with the same decor in my house, I suddenly decided one day that it was (in the infamous words of Bill Clinton) "time for a change."  The dark-colored paint and the old-fashioned wallpaper no longer please me.  In fact, they downright depress me.  So last week I started ripping away at the paper.  The top layer peeled off easier than I expected, but what remained was a layer of thin paper that is stuck to the wall by a stubborn glue.  This morning I am using a product to remove that final layer, and all of this has got me thinking about change.

It would have been easier to just leave the room as-is than it is to go through the work of making the alteration.  It requires time and effort that I would rather devote to something more pleasurable.  Sure, I could have just kept running in and out of the house rather than stopping to really observe my surroundings, but I've decided that I'm going to do this.  And if I'm going to do it right, it's going to take time, patience, and a lot of elbow grease.  I wouldn't dream of stopping now that the first layer is off, because if I don't go through the nitty gritty work of scraping off the stubborn paper and residual glue, the end result will be much less attractive.  It will not be the final look I envisioned, and it will not emanate its full elegance.

When it comes to changes within me, I'm much more likely to stop peeling after the first layer.  It's too damn much work to go deeper, and what the hell - it's a lot easier to hide than the wallpaper.  I can keep myself busy and running in many activities and directions to avoid looking within.  I can even doctor myself up in all kinds of ways to hide that residual stuff, and nobody will be any worse for the wear, right? 

The wallpaper has taught me a lesson.  If I want my end result to be beautiful and to emanate that beauty, I must do the work to remove the underlying stuff.  It's going to be a chore, but how can I even think about leaving it as-is?  I want my life to bless and grace far beyond what I expect of the four walls in my home.  I must remember to give myself the same time and energy.  It might be difficult, but the blessings will far outweigh the hardships.  Hopefully I'll do this more frequently than every thirteen years!

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